Nothing new.

Drunk and feeling social, sadly there's no one to chat with really.

Been listening a lot to one particular song : Johnny Cash - Hurt

Wow, I still remember some basic html code. Even wasted. Ah well.

I miss my ex-wife a lot, really a lot. I'm kind of swirling in a big ball of emptiness and loneliness oddly enough, even though I like to be alone a lot, I enjoy solitude but I apparently can't withstand it.

I (sometimes) have feelings, but it's hard to even explain them to others and I am weak to have to bother to do so, but at least I can sort of say it here and what, maybe 1 person if that, sees it.

Oh well, perhaps the void will consume such frailties.

Meh.

\Koltûr

Nothing much new, except I am apparently being sued by the housing association that oversaw the demense the wife and I shared when we were together in a townhouse.

I get to go to court and present evidence that I was not living there and (hopefully) not responsible for any billing in regards to this. They are trying to get something like $2500 out of me or more.

Hopefully the divorce decree and other information can negate this, otherwise I am somewhat screwed over.

Yay , me!

\Koltûr

If you are a char who wants his/her char revived , lemme know. koltur@hotmail.com or koltur@gmail.com ~ either of those two will allow me to see.

Hell, if you login and i got a char backup for you, I will bring it back to life if I notice.

(Alani, i recently noticed you logged in, and 'revived' your char... overwriting your level 1 char.)

~

If you care, anyways.

\Koltûr

Nothing really to say.

Life sucks. (As usual)

Found some old pics the ex-wife had of the cats / house / etc. etc. , our life, whatever. Feeling a bit sentimental for things I can never have again and for the mistakes I made even getting with her in the first place. What a big waste of time/life.

But, on the happy side, seems whatever sadness I was in is gone, now I'm just resigned/resolved/etc. My earlier statement was just factual, not bitter, not anything. I'm past all that by this point.

Meh.

\Koltûr

Perhaps one of the creepiest stories i've ever read on the internet.

~begin:
throwawayz0782 1097 points 1 day ago*

Well, here goes. This is the kind of dark and depraved shit that will make the rest of you ashamed to be human beings with me.

My sister, who is 1 year younger than me, had this really hot friend who I always had a crush on but who was never interested in me. Well, one day my sister asked me to fix her laptop, and I found a video of the two of them doing some lesbian fooling around. Neither of them was gay to my knowledge so I was blown away. I saved a copy of the video to my thumbdrive and wanked to it furiously for weeks. I eventually came to terms with the fact that it wasn't just the friend getting me off, it was the fact that she was with my sister.

I would start doing creepy shit like sneaking into her room while she was sleeping and touching her and licking her leg as high up her thigh I could.

About a year and a half after I found the video, my sister was killed in a car accident. Her friend came to the funeral of course, and while she was kneeling alone over the casket saying her goodbyes I wondered if she was thinking of what her and my sister used to do with each other, and I got an errection right there at the viewing. I got home and loaded up the video again and had another wank and then cried.

TL;DR: I wanked to the stolen homade lesbian porno of my sister after her funeral.

Edited to clarify that I wasn't looking at infant porno, though I don't understand how anyone could think 1 year olds would be able to make porn with each other.
~end

Saved for creepy flashbacks.

Just saw this and laughed. That is all.



Later

Well... good news, but I'm not posting it here, heh.

Super super good news, anyways.

Later!

\Koltûr

Finally the weekend has ushered in a time where i can get away from work from the 7-day stretch that i've recently been working.

Thank **** for that quite frankly.

Where am I? Where, well... I have gone down to Redwing to visit my buddy Tom and have some fun and see the movie Tor ... (THOR) and quite frankly I am somewhat happy to not be sitting around at my mom's house doing fuck all and just hanging out and having a nice(er) time then I would be otherwise.

Oh well....

Glad.

Later,
Koltûr

Oh sweet Internets you've come back to me! After hours of internet outage it's back and ready for attack! Heh.

Laters
\Koltûr

Monday morning... another soon-to-be grueling week at work, but at least I have a job and lately it's been treating me pretty well. Life in general has been pretty nice for the most part. Seen a bunch of old friends, had a bunch of fun, done a bunch of things and well, I definitely have no complaints, things are much better right now for me then they were a year ago at this time, so... seems like I just got nothing but 'decent' to look forward to.

Came across some old crap involving the exWife, pics/etc. <Delete> = handy. Heh. Been doing my best to remove the last vestiges of memory of her from my brain using interesting mixtures of various substances and... there's kinda a shadow of a memory, only really remember when I see a picture or something like that, so I'm doing my best to remove any traces that I come across. Heh, I hope she's happier in her new bed, I certainly am.

Been watching a lot of movies, anime, reading interesting books... becoming more eclectic in my book-tastes as I am reading a huge number of books from this dude at work. Got him to come out and hang with mom and me this weekend, was pretty fun. Had yummy dinner, ate steaks.. blahblah.

Looking forwards to SWTOR still, I told the ex I wouldn't play, but that's a lie, I probably will for sure. Even if only on a euro-server or something. Been considering trying this RIFT but I haven't got around to it. I suppose I have time to play games but been having a bunch more fun drinking/smoking/reading/movie-ing/hanging-with-friends/etc., then purely gaming although I did play Dragon Age 2 and had some fun with that.

I dunno. Hard to make up my mind with what I wanna do when I got so many options that are equally as pleasing, heh. Pretty happy about that and I think I'll probably just stay pretty happy from here on out, summer 's coming up and I suspect I'll find myself some trouble to keep me occupied.

Oh well,nothing much else to say or ramble about.

Later
\Koltûr